‘Ole Kû Kahi
I’ve added two new treatments to my protocol. I’m taking hemp seeds and cannabis oil, as well as incorporating Frankincense Oil. I eat the hemp seed and cannabis oil, while I put the Frankincense on my skin with a new lotion I made out of coconut oil, vitamin E, and Frankincense.
A friend asked me how I will know what treatment cured the cancer since I am doing so many. This got me thinking. I’m not really focused on curing anything. To use a common analogy, cancer is like a “check engine” warning light in a car. You don’t try to disconnect the light to fix the problem; instead you do a systemic overhaul.
Dr. Arun Sharma [whose services were gifted to me by two incredible friends whom I have never met, Nisha and Ragu] guided me towards this path when I first got diagnosed: “Our approach is to improve your overall health to such an extent that no dis-ease remains there. Disease is just a diminution of health and it vanishes as you improve health. So all therapies which are oriented with a consideration of fighting cancer or curing cancer are not taken in our system.”
From this perspective, cancer is a gift in the same way a functioning warning light is a gift. They both give you some advance notice to fix some deep lying issues that could cause a total breakdown.
Here are some of the gifts cancer has already given me:
- Getting in touch with nature, ‘âina, ‘aumakua, kûpuna, and my body.
- Juicing raw vegetables every morning with a juicer gifted to me by a dear friend, Mitch McCoy
- coconut water gifted to me by the thoughtful Mehta family
- mangosteen juice gifted to me by Auntie Sandy Wong
- moringa oleifera gifted to me by my dear friend, Oliver Bock
- Kangen Water gifted to me by my loving cousin in Hawaii, Marie Imanaka
- Taking all the chemicals out of my life–water, processed foods, shampoo, toothpaste, lotion, soap, cell phones
- Taking all the refined sugar out of my diet–I knew this was something I needed to do, but I never thought I could do it. Within 2 weeks of the diagnosis, I was sugar-free. “Free at last, free at last…”
- Motivation to do morning prayers and movements on a regular basis.+ All the sunrises I have witnessed doing my prayers
- Powerful experiences in gift ecology. Watching all the different forms of capital manifest whenever and wherever I need them.
- The invitation to just love everything and everyone gifted by being in the presence of Jayeshbhai Patel
- Healing deep scars with my parents, my ancestors, my family, and myself.
- Embodying the first chakra, na’au, perineum, and ‘ôkole.
- Learning to live “faith and patience” on a daily basis
- Realizing the importance of ‘olu’olu (gentleness) with myself, my body, my sons, my loved ones, difficult others, and complete strangers.
- Barefoot hiking and all the lessons the land is teaching me from the feet up.
The amazing thing about all these gifts is that I will continue to practice/receive them regardless what the dis-ease does. A malignant tumor has gifted me a change of lifestyle, diet, perspective, and heart. I can honestly say that I am filled with gratitude for everything that cancer has given me.
Ate a lot of Chipotle salads lately since it was Halloween and I had to get food a number of times on the run. Otherwise, I’m really enjoying my raw foods diet.
Went surfing with my cousins, Mitch and Mathew. I had one of the best sessions I’ve had in years. On one long wave, I felt like I was surfing as well as I did in the late 90s. What followed was a flood of thoughts around my identity as a surfer:
“I could be one of the best surfers out here if I started going on a regular basis.”
“That guy thinks he’s good, but he doesn’t know how to use his inside rail.”
When we got back to the car, we started talking to the father and son parked next to us. The father proceeded to go off on how he’d been surfing since the early 80s. He went on and on about board design and how he surfed the same board in 2 feet to 15 feet waves. At one point, he said, “You guys should check out a surf spot called 26th Avenue. It’s a great spot for you.”
Part of me wanted to tell him that I’d been surfing 26th Ave. since 1981, but I stayed quiet.
When we drove off, my cousin said, “He was a nice guy.” Although part of me wanted to question why he felt the need to assume a position of expertise when he clearly wasn’t a very good surfer, I had to agree with Mitch–he was a nice guy.
Right before I met my cousins to drive over the hill to the beach, I had been listening to an Adyashanti cd where he talks about how he had been attached to his identity as a world-class cyclist. At one point, he got a 6 month debilitating illness that left him “weak as a puppy.” He felt relieved that he didn’t have to maintain the strenuous identity of a cyclist, but when he started getting his health back, he found himself “training” again, as if he were heading to the Olympics.
Life then sent Adyashanti another debilitating disease. I took this as a sign and started to give up all my attachments to my identity as a surfer. When I think about it, what lies at the core of needing to be seen as a good surfer or a world-class cyclist is a forgetting of who we really are.
When I step into lôkahi (unity/unbrokenness), I don’t need to be anyone special or prove myself to others because we are all one. We are all the sinner and the saint. We are the Buddha and the CEO. Or as Jayeshbhai puts it, “I want to see everyone as myself. I want to see myself in everyone.”
Had a great weekend with the boys. We are learning to accommodate each other on our needs. I felt like I was able to take care of what I needed to do while also allowing them to get their needs met. They even helped do chores around the house before I took them to Bass Pro Shops (my older son loves fishing) and the movies.
Did my prayers before I jumped in the ocean to go surfing. I also asked the ocean permission to enter and waited for a sign. A wave slammed the breakwall. It didn’t get me wet, but saltwater caressed my feet and pulled me toward the ocean. I took this as a sign and ran out as the sea receded. I then proceeded to catch three nice waves one right after another.
Everyday I experience the importance of including nature in my prayers and practices. Doing my prayers barefoot in the park is getting more challenging with the colder/wet weather, but I can’t imagine saying my prayers in the house anymore. We’ll see what happens when the El Nino storms start rolling in.
7:00 AM Sediment no blood
7:29 AM Small BM with blood and sediment
12:30 AM Blood and lots of sediment.
6:40 AM Blood and sediment. Small BM
7:28 AM Medium/Large BM little or no blood
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10:40 PM Blood and Sediment.brown in color
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6:15 AM Blood and sediment with small BM
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1:30 PM Sediment Auburn in color
3:30 PM Small BM with blood and sediment
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6:30 AM Blood and sediment with dark small BM
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7:00 AM Blood and Sediment.with medium BM
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8:20 PM Huge BM with blood and sediment
1:11 AM Large BM
6:30 AM Sediment auburn
9:30 AM small BM
3:30 PM Blood and sediment auburn
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