Boys got off early for parent conferences, so I hung out with them all day.
Made guacamole, salsa, and salad for lunch. Had endive leafs with raw marinara and hummus for dinner. Raw foods is becoming a habit. Today I’m dehydrating flax seed crackers.
Did some qigong walking and morning prayers. I seem to have more energy nowadays. I still get sleepy in the afternoon, but it is not fatigue. I am able to run around, climb stairs, do exercises, and take care of boys without getting exhausted. I’m also sleeping better–full 8 hours.
Trying to keep calm with difficult others. Trying to empathize with others–feel into their dis-ease. My dis-ease seems to have brought me more humility and compassion.
Really letting go of any need for future security. If I cannot afford some treatments, so be it. I will make do with what the Universe provides. If this leads to an early check out, so be it. Everything is a blessing.
ONLY 2 BMs yesterday and very little blood!!!
6:30 AM 1 piece of sediment with very little blood
7:20 AM Large BM (large in duration, not size) with little blood. This was a “hot” BM. I have been eating a lot of spicy food lately. Many of the raw recipes have jalapeno peppers in them. I’m also drinking Moringa every morning which is pretty spicy. I am sensing that spicy food kills parasites (which are associated with a weak immune system).
Alison can confirm, but I have traveled to many places where parasites and food poisoning are prevalent, and they all seem to eat spicy food. The locals can tolerate really spicy food, and rarely seem to get food poisoning or, I assume, parasites.
I’m a bit concerned that these hot BMs will irritate the rectal tumor, but I haven’t experienced that yet. In fact, the bleeding and BMs are slowing down. I’m sensing into the possibility that the tumor is no longer there or shrinking.