Today is the blood moon eclipse and the closest the moon gets to earth for another 30 years. I felt heavy like gravity today. Not much lightness and a lot of bleeding. I’m interested to see what tomorrow brings.
Raw foods and oatmeal. Then for dinner succumbed to Chipotle salad. The manager said that everything I was getting was vegan. Did two rounds of juice and drank ginger/honey tea. I also started cod liver oil again after preparing a urine sample for testing.
Woke up early, but fatigued, to do urine test. Then went to park to do prayers and movements. Walked half way back from park doing qigong walk. All in all, it took over an hour to do morning exercises.
I noticed while doing a shaking exercise that it felt very similar to jumping on a trampoline yesterday. Ancient cultures seemed to sense into the need to simulate the lymph nodes and immune system with this bouncing movement. In our modern culture, we don’t dance or move as much. Even the hokey pokey would be powerful practice if performed everyday.
Spent powerful time with Jett and Fox. Also, connected with my cousin, Scott. He has very different views about treatment, but he seemed to see my perspective without necessary agreeing with it. I’m noticing that I don’t have micro-arguments anymore. If someone disagrees, so be it. We are still in the same canoe.
Had some vivid dreams again this morning. Not sure what they mean, but they feel real. The word for dream in Hawaiian is moe’uhane which literally means “sleep spirit.” I’m sensing that my spirit is trying to tell me something, but not sure what it is. This dream had to do with the end of a retreat/summer camp. My son Jett was there. I was saying goodbye to other familiar ServiceSpace participants, feeling tenderly connected, yet sad. The Brazilian term, saudade–“the love that remains after someone is gone”–came to mind.
One of the core members of ServiceSpace has been dealing with Aplastic Anemia. I feel so connected with this friend since our diagnosis came within weeks of each other. He is also pushing off conventional treatment in favor of alternative medicine. I have a feeling that our healing is connected with each other and the ‘âina (the land/that which sustains us). Saying St. Francis prayer this morning, I got the distinct message that I am to love, console, heal others first. “It is in giving that we receive; in pardoning that we are pardoned; in dying that we are born into eternal life.”
I kept a log of kûkae today. I’m using this to monitor my health, not for blog readers. 🙂
6:30 AM blood and small BM
9 AM small BM w/little blood
11:55 AM med to small BM w/little blood
2 PM Just blood
5:15 PM Small bloody BM