Getting back into the routine of life back home. Some powerful gifts came my way.
One of my meditator/Adyashanti friends offered to give me $5000 for the deductible for my insurance, so I could start getting treatments paid for by the plan. She also offered free energetic healings and her partner is giving me free qigong healings.
Saw my roommate and talked to him about the trip to Hawaii. He wanted to know how I have been monitoring the tumor. I said that I was researching ways to monitor, but haven’t found anything sustainable. I told him how one test cost $500.
“I don’t have a lot of money, Kozo. But I will give you $500 if it will help you assess your progress,” he said.
I am just amazed how people are offering whatever they have to help me on this journey. It really makes me believe in the gift ecology that I am trying to practice.
Divine Text Message
Another friend sends me beautiful photos via text message. She knows I love clouds, so she sent me a cloud photo with the caption, “Look Up!”
I looked up and took this photo.
I like how it puts into perspective man-made obstructions to the Divine. It helps me realize that in the larger picture, this tumor is a tiny man-made obstruction in hands of the Divine.
I got some feedback from the workshop I gave in Hawaii via facebook.
“Yesterday was one of the most beautiful days in my life… 🙏🏻❤
Thank you Makala Kozo Hattori to share with us your healing experience with Aloha Spirit… ❤
I am so grateful for this opportunity, to be part of your workshop and to learn more about this powerfull way to live our lifes…Live with Aloha. Everywhere, Everytime with Everyone… ❤🙏🏻❤
A – Akahai, meaning kindness (grace)
L – Lokahi, meaning unity (unbroken)
O – ‘Olu’olu, meaning agreeable (gentle)
H – Ha’aha’a, meaning humility (empty)
A – Ahoniu, meaning patience (waiting for the moment)
#aloha #alohaspirit #livealoha #workshop #imsograteful #amazingday #lucktoliveinhawaii #lifeisbetterinhawaii”
Love all the emoticons and the hashtags at the end. #imsograteful
Attended Awakin Circle last night and basked in the circle wisdom. One participant shared that he stopped asking “Why me?” and started asking “What is the blessing in this event?” Another in the circle talked about his failure pruning a tree. He said that in the end, he realized that his job was to nurture and water the tree, not cut or control it. Great perspective on botany and cancer.
One of the regulars shared how she refused conventional medicine with a debilitating disease. After years of alternative treatment, she just got test results back that made her doctor view healing through new eyes.
Started making some raw food that excites me. The salad I made yesterday tasted healthy, nourishing, and joyful. Starting to see how I can enjoy this very spartan diet of raw veggies and grains.
Did a full morning movement/prayer with qigong walking. A participant from the Los Altos workshop emailed me and inquired about joining me for morning rituals. I’m excited to share this daily practice with someone else and get motivation to wake up earlier.
Watched an episode of “The Truth About Cancer” dvd series that Mandy gifted to me in Hawaii. One doctor talked about clearing emotional trauma. He said the same thing that my Hawaiian healer told me: You need to ask yourself why the cancer appeared where it did and when it did.
I still must be holding onto some kūkae (crap). Another doctor said that one bad thought can keep you in disease more than any bad diet. I’m trying not to have any bad thoughts–towards the teachers at my sons’ school; towards crabby people; towards inconsiderate people; towards loved ones and members of my family.
This doctor said that we take on emotional baggage from our mothers and fathers in the womb. Then in the first two years of our lives huge amounts of emotional trauma are passed onto us.
Reminds me to do more inner child healing sessions with Leyna. I’m also going to talk to my mom about what was going on when I was in the womb and the first two years of my life.
Lots of intense dreaming at night. I wake up with a light sweat.
I’m also drawn to sound healing. Started playing the ukulele again. Music and laughter are two things I want to increase in my life.
Slight tapering of blood. Still red sediment at the bottom of the toilet, but a lot less blood. Not a lot of kūkae, but this is understandable since yesterday I cleared a lot with 4 major BMs. Started using 11.5 ph water to dampen toilet paper. I think the real trick will be to do some 11.5 enemas, maybe combined with coffee.
Some of you might notice that I changed the name of my postings from “Aloha Cancer” to “Aloha Healing.” Part of this has to do with me sensing into not having cancer anymore. I also don’t want to make cancer the focus of this blog or my life. I want to focus on the larger picture–the clouds, the Divine, the healing.