Aloha Healing 9/18/2015

moon waxing

‘Ole Kū Kahi
Māhoe Hope 18

Boys had no school today, so we went hiking at Castle Rock Park.

I woke up exhausted. Low energy all day long. Tomorrow, I will do an 11.5 ph enema.

Trying not to have any bad thoughts.

Diet

Drinking at least a gallon of Kangen water everyday. It feels healing.

In the mornings I drink fresh vegetable juice followed by oatmeal with honey, flax seed oil, walnuts, and dates. Salad for lunch and Chipotle salad for dinner. Realized half way through the Chipotle salad that it probably has pepper in it which is a no no for cancer.

Finding it tough to find any restaurant in the South Bay Area that accommodates an anti-cancer diet. Berkeley, Honolulu, and San Francisco have raw food vegan restaurants, but Silicon Valley has none.

Took my son into 99 Ranch Market for the deli and felt sick just walking through the store. I will never shop there again. They are super cheap, but like I’ve heard over and over, “you can pay now or pay later.” For years, I tried to save money on my diet, but now I realize that cheap food is never worth it.

Exercise

Was too tired this morning to do movements, although I did prayers with Jett which was nice. Did hike around Castle Rock in the oxygen rich Santa Cruz mountains.

Relationships

Tried to keep peace in all my relationships. Following the Hawaiian concept of akahai, I am trying not to activate anyone–Beryl, my sons, even strangers or fellow drivers.

Spirituality

I am getting so much love and light from different spheres of my life, including this blog, that healing is inevitable.

 Kūkae (BM)

Had early morning bloody sediment, but for the whole day, i had nothing but semi-normal bowel movements. My last BM was bloody sediment, but I am definitely having long phases of intestinal health.

Aloha Healing 9/17/2015

moon waxKû Pau
Māhoe Hope 17

Getting back into the routine of life back home. Some powerful gifts came my way.

Gift Ecology

One of my meditator/Adyashanti friends offered to give me $5000 for the deductible for my insurance, so I could start getting treatments paid for by the plan. She also offered free energetic healings and her partner is giving me free qigong healings.

Saw my roommate and talked to him about the trip to Hawaii. He wanted to know how I have been monitoring the tumor. I said that I was researching ways to monitor, but haven’t found anything sustainable. I told him how one test cost $500.

“I don’t have a lot of money, Kozo. But I will give you $500 if it will help you assess your progress,” he said.

I am just amazed how people are offering whatever they have to help me on this journey. It really makes me believe in the gift ecology that I am trying to practice.

Divine Text Message

Another friend sends me beautiful photos via text message. She knows I love clouds, so she sent me a cloud photo with the caption, “Look Up!”

I looked up and took this photo.

cloud photoI like how it puts into perspective man-made obstructions to the Divine. It helps me realize that in the larger picture, this tumor is a tiny man-made obstruction in hands of the Divine.

Facebook Heaven

I got some feedback from the workshop I gave in Hawaii via facebook.

“Yesterday was one of the most beautiful days in my life… 🙏🏻
Thank you Makala Kozo Hattori to share with us your healing experience with Aloha Spirit…
I am so grateful for this opportunity, to be part of your workshop and to learn more about this powerfull way to live our lifes…Live with Aloha. Everywhere, Everytime with Everyone… 🙏🏻

A – Akahai, meaning kindness (grace)
L – Lokahi, meaning unity (unbroken)
O – ‘Olu’olu, meaning agreeable (gentle)
H – Ha’aha’a, meaning humility (empty)
A – Ahoniu, meaning patience (waiting for the moment)
‪#‎aloha‬ ‪#‎alohaspirit‬ ‪#‎livealoha‬ ‪#‎workshop‬ ‪#‎imsograteful‬ ‪#‎amazingday‬ ‪#‎lucktoliveinhawaii‬ ‪#‎lifeisbetterinhawaii‬”

Love all the emoticons and the hashtags at the end. #imsograteful

Home Awakenings

Attended Awakin Circle last night and basked in the circle wisdom. One participant shared that he stopped asking “Why me?” and started asking “What is the blessing in this event?” Another in the circle talked about his failure pruning a tree. He said that in the end, he realized that his job was to nurture and water the tree, not cut or control it. Great perspective on botany and cancer.

One of the regulars shared how she refused conventional medicine with a debilitating disease. After years of alternative treatment, she just got test results back that made her doctor view healing through new eyes.

Diet

Started making some raw food that excites me. The salad I made yesterday tasted healthy, nourishing, and joyful. Starting to see how I can enjoy this very spartan diet of raw veggies and grains.

diversity poster

Exercise

Did a full morning movement/prayer with qigong walking. A participant from the Los Altos workshop emailed me and inquired about joining me for morning rituals. I’m excited to share this daily practice with someone else and get motivation to wake up earlier.

Relationships

Watched an episode of “The Truth About Cancer” dvd series that Mandy gifted to me in Hawaii. One doctor talked about clearing emotional trauma. He said the same thing that my Hawaiian healer told me: You need to ask yourself why the cancer appeared where it did and when it did.

I still must be holding onto some kūkae (crap). Another doctor said that one bad thought can keep you in disease more than any bad diet. I’m trying not to have any bad thoughts–towards the teachers at my sons’ school; towards crabby people; towards inconsiderate people; towards loved ones and members of my family.

This doctor said that we take on emotional baggage from our mothers and fathers in the womb. Then in the first two years of our lives huge amounts of emotional trauma are passed onto us.

Reminds me to do more inner child healing sessions with Leyna. I’m also going to talk to my mom about what was going on when I was in the womb and the first two years of my life.

Spirituality

Lots of intense dreaming at night. I wake up with a light sweat.

I’m also drawn to sound healing. Started playing the ukulele again. Music and laughter are two things I want to increase in my life.

Kūkae (BM)

Slight tapering of blood. Still red sediment at the bottom of the toilet, but a lot less blood. Not a lot of kūkae, but this is understandable since yesterday I cleared a lot with 4 major BMs. Started using 11.5 ph water to dampen toilet paper. I think the real trick will be to do some 11.5 enemas, maybe combined with coffee.

Name Change

Some of you might notice that I changed the name of my postings from “Aloha Cancer” to “Aloha Healing.” Part of this has to do with me sensing into not having cancer anymore. I also don’t want to make cancer the focus of this blog or my life. I want to focus on the larger picture–the clouds, the Divine, the healing.

Aloha Cancer 9/16/2015

moon waxingKū Kolu

Māhoe Mua 16

It has been a whirlwind the last few days. Haven’t been able to post, so I’m going to summarize here.

September 12th, 2015

On the heels of the 14th anniversary of 9/11 attacks and the 23rd anniversary of Hurricane Iniki, the torrential rains of yesterday cleared up, and I woke up to blue skies over Oah`u.

Headed out to Kailua to the Ulupo Heiau where I was meeting a hula teacher named Malia Helela. Ulupo actually means “grow out of darkness.” So all these images and weather patterns seemed to indicate a coming into the light from the dark.

Ulupo Heiau

I got to the sacred site early, so I walked around to check out the huge rock walls. At the bottom of the heiau I heard a movement in a Ti leaf plant next to me. Turns out a mo`o (gecko) was jumping from leaf to leaf. Then as I walked back to the meeting place, a large seed of a Pū Hala tree hit me right on the top of my head.

Later I learned that a mo`o goddess was known to frequent the heiau. Maybe she was hitting me on the piko (top of the head/crown chakra) to wake me up.

Malia showed up with 30+ volunteers to clean up the heiau. I joined her team that was put in charge of clearing the auwai (waterways) to the lo`i (taro patches). Malia emphasized that we are clearing not only the auwai, but also our own waterways in our bodies, minds, and spirits. This hit me deeply, since I am literally clearing a tumor out of my intestinal waterway.

Another powerful insight that Malia shared had to do with the ua (rain). She said that she had been taught never to run from the rain because it was a blessing. Working in the wet taro patches with sprinkling rain did feel like a blessing.

I was so happy to clear muddy waterways that I lost track of time. With a quick farewell, I jumped in the car and headed back to my Auntie’s house in Aiea. By the time I got back, I realized that I had just enough time to either eat or shower before the workshop.

I was starving, so I chose food. Driving to the workshop in my muddy jeans and tee-shirt, it dawned on me that this was a powerful practice of ha`aha`a (humility). What better way to stay humble than to “lead” a workshop in clothes dyed by the ‘āina (land).

workshop facilitator

At the workshop 15 curious participants showed up. My cousin came with her husband and son. She told her son that he could leave whenever he wanted because they brought two cars. He ended up staying the full 7 hours.

Another woman said she had to leave after a few hours, but ended up staying for six.

In one part of the workshop we ‘olu‘olued (comfort/be gentle with) each other by cradling our partner like a baby. After the exercise, one participant was amazed that her partner sang her favorite childhood song to her–“You are my Sunshine.” It turns out that these participants had never met before. Giovanni said he just felt like humming something, so he chose that song.

After 7 hours, we were all tired, but I felt connected with everyone there. It was a wonderful first Aloha Awakenings in Hawaii.

As I was packing up, my cousin drove her car up and gave me a big box. It was a water ionizer machine. She had bought me the deluxe machine that costs over 3000 dollars! I came to Hawai`i for the “Ha” (breath of the Divine), the “wai” (water), and “i” (spirit). Now I was leaving with a lifetime supply of healing wai.

I have been drinking the ionized 9.0 ph water everyday, and I feel so much better. Thank you for your love and generosity, Marie. You are my favorite cousin. 🙂

September 13, 2015

I woke up before dawn and drove out to see the sunrise on the Eastside of the island. It was beautiful, but also pouring rain, so I came back and crashed in front of the television.

sunrise kailua

On the public television was a show on cancer. They discussed powerful natural cures including olena (turmeric). At Ulupo, I met one of Malia’s students named Kaiolena (ocean turmeric). I took this as a sign to include turmeric in my healing.

At lunch, I went to the store to buy poi (pounded taro paste). While walking in, I made eye contact with a large Hawaiian man who looked a lot like my Hawaiian grandfather. He gave me a huge Hawaiian smile. I took this as a sign that my grandfather was happy with me.

In the afternoon, I met my friend Darren at Kaimana beach to go swimming. We talked about healing relationships with our fathers. I told Darren how I had talked with my stepfather and did some inner child healing work around my biological father. He talked about healing the relationship with his father and his grandfather. “I just wish my grandfather had told me that he loved me and was proud of me. Just one time,” Darren said.

Darren and his wife are expecting a son, so I shared that we can tell our sons how much we love them.

Giovanni from the workshop turned out to be a Reiki Master, so he showed up around sunset to give me a session. Giovanni is a natural healer. He has very hot hands. In ancient Hawaii, they would choose children to become Kahuna LomiLomi (Masters of Healing Massage) by how hot their hands were.

At one point during the session, Giovanni had one hand on each of my feet. It felt very grounding and stable. While he had his hands on both my feet, I felt someone caressing my forehead. I had my eyes closed, and a thought occurred to me that someone else might be there looking through my backpack, but it felt so good to have healing hands on my feet and head that I just kept my eyes closed.

After the session (before I could tell Giovanni about my experience), he shared what the session was like for him. He said that he sensed the presence of a mother figure who was saying, “My son, my son” while he was grounding my feet. He also said that she sternly said, “Don’t give up; you know better.”

Giovanni also said that he almost started crying at one point when the iPod that was on shuffle played, “Ave Maria.” He felt the presence of angels surrounding us.

I remember recognizing the song and feeling a deep peace with the moment.

When I told Giovanni about feeling someone at my feet and forehead, he was blown away. He said he wasn’t sure if he should share what he experienced with me, but was glad he did.

What a day!

September 14th

Before boarding the flight back to California, I waited as long as I could to breathe in as much mana (power) from the ‘āina (land) as I could. The change in oxygen levels from Hawaii to the airplane to California were obvious.

sunset san jose

I landed to a gorgeous sunset in San Jose.

Diet

Ate a lot of raw vegan food in Hawaii. I also had poi which felt nourishing and healing. For a few dinners, I did eat tofu which tasted great, but I’m not sure how that affects the dis-ease.

I have to say that drinking this alkaline ionized water has been really powerful. I feel so much more hydrated and nourished.

Exercise

Did my exercises and prayers to the sunrise with some qigong walking at Kailua on 9/13 and some short exercises in the airport on 9/14. Not much exercises on the plane and I just crashed when I got home.

Relationships

Lots of stress in the home after getting back from Hawaii. Jett and Fox are acting out at school. Beryl is feeling overburdened. Trying to keep the Aloha spirit alive in Cupertino.

Spirituality

The session with Giovanni gave me confidence to pursue my current path. I do feel like I have angels watching over me.

Seeing the Hawaiian man in the grocery store felt very comforting–kind of like another angel.

Kūkae (BM)

Noticeably less bleeding. Still bleeding, but less bloody mess when I wipe. I also had a few BMs where there was no blood or very little blood. I also feel like I don’t have as much obstruction when i have a BM.

Got a few signs around enemas while in Hawaii–including Mandy gifting me 2 enema bags with organic coffee. I am considering doing enemas with 11.5 ph water since cancer cells thrive in acidic environments.

Aloha Cancer 9/11/2015

waxing crescentMauli
Māhoe Mua 11

Woke up this September 11th to a torrential rainstorm. On the 14th anniversary of the 9/11 attacks and the 23rd anniversary of Hurricane Iniki, I asked for permission to enter the Keaiwa Heiau. The rain and a feeling told me not to enter, so I did my prayers outside the heiau.

This day is also the last day of the moon cycle. Tonight the new moon (moku) goes dark and a new waxing cycle begins (hilo).

City of RefugeTomorrow feels like a new light punching through the darkness. It is no coincidence that I am hosting the first Aloha Awakenings Workshop on Hawaiian Lands.

Diet

Water seems to be the theme of the day. Not only is it pouring rain, but Crystal put a comment about Masaru Emoto’s water crystal photos. Then my cousin offered to buy me a $2000 water ionizer. “Money is no object, if it will help you live longer,” said my generous and loving favorite cousin.

Exercise

Listened to my body and rested today. I am aware that I have to facilitate a 7 hour workshop tomorrow, so getting rest is important.

Relationships

Obviously, I am honored by my cousin’s generous and thoughtful offer. Amazing how different friends and family members are showing love and support in different ways. So grateful.

Spirituality

Was suppose to go to a Hawaiian Bible study today, but it got cancelled due to the weather. Turns out that I needed a nap and some rest. I used to try to jam spirituality in my life. Now I take my time and rest when needed.

BM

After one of the longest BMs this morning that I have had in over a year, I had a lot of blood or beet juice during the day. Lots of blood sediment. Not sure what is going on, but I’m just trying to be patient and aware.

Aloha Cancer 9/10/2015

waxing crescentMauli
Māhoe Mua 10

Remembered what Uncle Paul Strauch told me and asked to enter the heiau this morning. The Gods answered with this anuenue (rainbow). So grateful for the blessings.

rainbow heieauSpent the rest of the day with my dear friend, Mandy, posting up flyers for the workshop. Mandy is pure joy. Even when we got detoured by traffic, she smiled and said, “Let’s go check out the surf at Makapu`u.” One healer told me that Love and Joy will heal cancer faster and more effective than any other treatment. Time with Mandy is full of love and joy.

We anonymously paid for juice and shave ice for those who came after us, leaving a smile card. We handed out flowers to strangers in parking lots. We laughed at how amazing life can be when you let go of the reins. The only problem with hanging out with Mandy is that she insists on paying for everything.

Diet

Had both lunch and dinner at Peace Cafe. Wonderful vegan food in a small space with tranquil decor.

Exercise

Just morning exercises and prayers. Ran around a lot passing out flyers. Did an oli (Hawaiian chanting) class with Malia and gave a small workshop for my friend Darren and his pregnant wife Chiaki.

Relationships

So honored to spend time with Darren, his wife, and his mother, Reggie. Even though Darren and I don’t see each other often, we still have a deep love for each other that has spanned three decades. At one point, Darren said with tears in his eyes, “I understand your choice and respect your spirit, but I don’t want to have to say goodbye to you.”

Spirituality

One of my friends has heart problems. The doctor wanted to do open heart surgery. After a few months, they checked her heart again and it had gotten better, so now they are holding off on the surgery. I want her to attend my workshop, so we can open the heart without scalpels. Just knowing that the body can reverse dis-ease all on its own is an inspiration and example for me. I am grateful for her authentic and vulnerable share.

BM

Lots of blood today. I was a bit perplexed, until I remembered that yesterday I drank a juice that had beets in it and ate oatmeal with grated raw beets. Maybe this isn’t blood, but beet coloring. I felt good all day, so not too concerned. Mandy told me all about coffee enemas, so I might start doing those when I get home.

Aloha Cancer 9/9/2015

waxing crescentKāne
Māhoe Mua 9

Woke up this morning and headed to the Keaiwa Heiau (Hawaiian temple) above Aiea on O`ahu. I entered the heiau to do my prayers and exercises with the rising sun and crowing roosters. Such a gift. After meditating for a while, I did some qigong walking around the heiau and noticed the waning crescent moon in line with the rising sun in the east.

Hawaiian HeiauThen when exiting the heiau, I learned that this heiau was for kahuna lapa`au (Hawaiian medicine men). They gathered herbs and plants and made them into medicine at this heiau. Lots of healing energy stretching back thousands of years.

Later, I met a Kumu Hula (Hula Teacher) who told me that the name of the heiau was one of her favorite words in Hawaiian. Āiwaiwa means “inexplicable, mysterious, marvelous, strange, amazing, fantastic, fathomless, incomprehensible, wonderful because of divinity.” What an amazing word. Wouldn’t it be great if we lived our lives āiwaiwa?

Diet

Had a great raw, vegan meal at Greens and Vines restaurant in downtown Honolulu. The Living Lasagne was tasty and filling. Talked to Chef Sylvia afterwards and she gave me some tips on how not to get bored with a raw diet. “Cook 1/4 portions and experiment with flavors and seasonings.” Great advice, since twice I have made almond hummus and ended up dumping 1/3 of it because it spoils or I get bored of it.

Exercise

Besides morning exercises at the heiau, I swam in the ocean at Ala Moana Beach Park. Water was salty, so it floated me without having to do much!

Relationships

Had a long talk with a friend who is counselor for elementary school children in Hawaii. We talked about compassion, boys, and the struggles boys have with compassion and school. It felt great to reconnect with someone after years of absence only to find out that we are on the same wavelength.

Missing Beryl and the boys. They call and tell me they love me. “Can I go to the heiau?” asked 5 year old Fox. So cute and inspiring.

Also, connected with two teachers at the Still and Moving Center where I am giving the workshop. They gave me support in my choice to heal from the dis-ease in an alternative way. It feels good to have support from near strangers on such a monumental decision.

Spirituality

Went to go buy a Hawaiian music Cd, only to find a cool bookstore that had tons of old books about Hawaii and Hawaiian spirituality. So much wisdom on this island. I learned a new ‘ōlelo no‘eau (Hawaiian wise saying): e puka aku me kāu mau makana–“emerge with your gifts.”

Or as Pono Shim says, “if you would honor us with your gift, we would hold it as valuable. Nothing was too big, nothing was too small; every gift was important. Everyone was valuable.” Reminds me that everyone has gifts to give and receive. This saying reminds me to be open to both giving and receiving.

For me this blog is both giving and receiving. I receive so much from every comment, yet many of the comments thank me for writing. 🙂

BM

Very little blood today. More green and brown than red. Sorry about the details, but I’m really trying to track any signs of change or healing. Had lots of energy throughout the day with swimming, socializing, reading, and driving. I did add a supplement rich in anti-oxidants this morning. Not sure if that made a difference.

Aloha Cancer 9/8/2015

waxing crescentKāloa Pau
Māhoe Mua 8

This morning I got dropped off at San Jose Airport at 6 AM for a 9 AM flight to Honolulu, so i decided to do my morning prayers and exercises in the waiting lounge. I picked an empty area no where near my gate and started my prayers.

As I started the movements, I notices someone approaching me out of the corner of my eye, but I ignored them, trying to focus. Finally, I had to look up at this large man who was smiling at me. It turned out to be a high school friend who happened to be flying out to Florida with his family.

He had heard about my diagnosis, so he asked how things were going. When I said that I was just doing alternative therapies, his wife chimed in and said I should talk to their neighbor. Turns out that they live next to a well-known naturopath who specializes in medicinal marijuana.

The funny thing is that when I had told my Hawaiian healing teacher about my diagnosis, she also suggested medical marijuana. Looks like I might be getting high soon. haha. Actually, the marijuana that they prescribe doesn’t get one high.

When I landed in Hawaii, I breathed in the moist air and felt nourished. I thought about how just being on this island was healing, until I took a lungful of jet fuel odor. I’ll bet that being in natural Hawaii is extremely healing. Unfortunately, it is getting harder and harder to find pristine Hawaiian lands nowadays.

Diet

Had to turn down everything on the plane. Amazing how anti-anti-cancer the meals they serve on the plane are–tons of sugar, no vegetables, lots of protein rich foods. Luckily, when I landed, my auntie took me to a health food store where I found some organic salads, including a taro vegan potato salad. Yum.

Exercise

Just my morning prayers and exercise. A little qigong walking to the terminal gate.

Relationships

Talked with a number of friends and relatives in Hawaii and felt a tremendous amount of Aloha and peace. Got a sweet phone message from Beryl and the boys.

Spirituality

Talked with my Uncle’s niece who teaches Hawaiian Language at Punahou Schools (the school Obama went to). We talked about spirituality, Christianity, and Hawaiian healing. She invited me to a Hawaiian bible study on Friday. So excited to partake in this powerful experience of reading the Bible in Hawaiian.

BM

Bleeding seems to be tapering off. Had some large BMs today, relatively speaking. It “feels” like the tumor is smaller since I don’t have that uncomfortable feeling when I have a BM. Alison said something that really resonated with me: “Maybe it would be possible to reframe other small indicators of the illness in a different more positive way so they are not about illness but simply about the body’s needs in the moment.” I realized that there are larger processes going on in my body and spirit that need time and space. I can’t judge every drop of blood as an indicator of my health and recovery. Thanks, Alison.

Aloha Cancer 9/07/2015

moonMoon Cycle

Kàloa Kû Lua

Mâhoe Mua 7

Tomorrow I fly to Oahu for some healing and to give a workshop on September 12th. I called Hawaiian Airlines to request a vegetarian meal, and they said that they don’t offer vegetarian meals on North American flights.

The other day, I went to buy a belt at Target because I’m losing weight. I used to be a size 32 waist, but now I’m about a 30. Target had a ton of belts, but none of them were small. The smallest size they had was size 32.

Is it me, or is our country waging the “war on cancer” on the wrong battlefront? All this money goes into chemo, radiation, and surgery, but no one seems to pay attention to diet or obesity. It seems ludicrous that high fat, high protein diets are risk factors for cancer and heart disease, but we are not offered vegetarian meals on a 5 hour flight. Waist sizes are increasing along with a host of diseases associated with obesity, yet we don’t stop eating; we just buy bigger belts.

Diet

Made a pot of Indian healing food (khichdi) to bring on the flight tomorrow. Hope the TSA lets it past security. Otherwise, it is going to be a long day without food, since when I land, I still have to find a restaurant that caters to organic whole foods. Yesterday, the family and I ate at Judahlicious in San Francisco. Boys loved their “Exodus” rice bowl with veggies, kale, hemp seed, and vegan parmesan. Beryl chowed a “1/2 Nekked Burrito” and I gobbled up a raw “Dahnu Wrap” made with a housemade Raw Flax tortilla. raw food dish

This was after talking to my friend Moni, who is a raw, vegetarian chef. She said that helping me find a way to make food enjoyable again with my anti-cancer diet helped her remember why she became a chef in the first place. I’m so excited to find joy in eating again.

Exercise

Did almost an hour of qigong walking today after morning prayers and movements. I’m really curious about the long term effects of this asymmetrical walking/breathing practice. I will write in detail the method on a future post.

Relationships

I feel like I’m leaving for Hawaii tomorrow with all my relationships at peace. It is kind of like doing all the dishes before you go on a trip. You know that when you return, you don’t have any messes to clean up.

Spirituality

Really excited about leading a spirit/Aloha based workshop on Oahu this week. Not sure who will show up, but I am sure my soul will be there.

BM

Seems like I went to the potty 12 times today. Not always bloody, but over the course of the day, quite a bit of blood. Had to sit down on a walk and take a nap around 12:30 PM. Getting hit with low energy right in the middle of the day. It could have also been that yesterday was a non-stop day with exercises, driving, surfing, playing, and cooking.

Aloha Cancer 9/05/2015

moon last quarterMoon Phase

‘Ole Pau

Màhoe Mua 5

I don’t meet any of the risk factors for rectal cancer. I eat healthy, do colon cleanses, don’t smoke, don’t drink, don’t eat meat. I have eaten oatmeal for breakfast every morning for almost 30 years. But one thing I did realize is that I tend to cook a whole bunch of oatmeal in the beginning of the week and warm it up in the microwave every morning. 30 years of microwaved food every morning could cause some damage.

Funny thing is that now that I cook the oatmeal from scratch every morning, I realize it doesn’t take that long. I’m not going to microwave anymore food. I wonder if anyone ever did a study on the rise in cancer rates in comparison with microwave sales. I remember when we use to put everything in the toaster oven. Now EVERYTHING goes in the microwave.

Am I sounding like an old man? 🙂

Diet

Same, but I’m trying to add some meals to maintain weight and energy levels. I’m getting really tired in the middle of the day.

Exercise

Did morning prayers indoors today and it was noticeably unhealthy. Something about the ground, the air, and the sunshine outdoors really supercharge the prayers and movements. Yesterday, I did about 45 minutes of qigong walking with a qigong master. Powerful stuff. Will post more about this in the future.

Relationships

Had a great Awakin Call this morning with ServiceSpace/Laddership leaders Natasha Rockstrom and Audrey Lin. Just being around ServiceSpace folks is healing.

Spirituality

Someone almost crashed into me while merging into my lane without checking their blind spot. This happens all the time in Cupertino. I honked to prevent getting hit, but then slowed down to let them in the lane. Small example, but i”m trying not to have pilikia (conflict) with anyone.

BM

Lots of blood today. Not sure if it is from the distance healing on Thursday. Just trying to stay patient.

Aloha Cancer 9/2/2015

strauch sunsetToday, I talked to legendary surfer Paul Strauch Jr. He told me some powerful things about Aloha and healing. When I told him that I was diagnosed with cancer and I was going to try alternative methods like Hawaiian spirituality, he said that he honored that commitment, but wanted me to keep an open mind to the technological advances in modern medicine. We reflected on the ‘ôlelo no’eau (wise Hawaiian saying), ‘A ‘ohe pau ka ‘ike I ka hâlau ho’okahi—all of your knowledge is not learned in one school.

This advice felt very nurturing. I was listening to Israel Kamakawiwo’ole right before my conversation with Uncle Paul. Between songs, Israel said, “Hawaiian to me is the feeling of getting somewhere without stepping on anybody’s toes, without causing friction with anybody.” Paul Strauch doesn’t step on anyone’s toes, which is why, even in the dog-eat-dog world of surfing, he is known as the “Gentleman Surfer.”

strauch and duke

Uncle Paul told me how his father would tell him to ask permission whenever he entered someplace unfamiliar. He did this when he entered the ocean. Sometimes the answer would come in ka makani nahenahe (an inviting subtle breeze). Other times a strong gust in the face would clearly mean no, so Paul wouldn’t go surfing that day.

Paul’s mother taught him to have respect for all relationships, even with the dead. After funerals, she would take pa’akai (Hawaiian sea salt), mix it with water, and use it to bless the family as they re-entered the house after the funeral.

These lessons of asking permission and respecting all relationships resonate deep in my na’au (guts). I am going to practice these rituals daily in my relationships with loved ones, strangers, nature, and everything around me.

I’m also going to ask permission of my tumor and try to make peace with my body. I believe that true healing comes in the form of mâlama ko’u kino—caring for our bodies. I don’t believe in the “war against cancer.” Cancer is part of who we are. Martin Luther King Jr. said, “Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.” Light and love that is what my body needs right now.

Diet

Chia seeds/flax seed meal/barley grass in morning

Fresh juiced carrot, kale, cucumber, mint, asparagus juice in morning and afternoon.

3 oz Xango Mangosteen juice 3x daily

Quinoa, black beans, avocado, salads, oatmeal, hummus, for meals. I have started eating 4 small meals rather than 3 large meals everyday

Exercise

Aloha Awakenings morning prayer exercises

Relationships

Stayed peaceful with everyone

Spiritual

Accepted that there are others who don’t believe in what I am doing

BM

Slight bleeding in stool. BM was long and thin. Feeling slight pressure or bloating in rectum.