‘Ole Kū Kahi
Māhoe Hope 18
Boys had no school today, so we went hiking at Castle Rock Park.
I woke up exhausted. Low energy all day long. Tomorrow, I will do an 11.5 ph enema.
Trying not to have any bad thoughts.
Diet
Drinking at least a gallon of Kangen water everyday. It feels healing.
In the mornings I drink fresh vegetable juice followed by oatmeal with honey, flax seed oil, walnuts, and dates. Salad for lunch and Chipotle salad for dinner. Realized half way through the Chipotle salad that it probably has pepper in it which is a no no for cancer.
Finding it tough to find any restaurant in the South Bay Area that accommodates an anti-cancer diet. Berkeley, Honolulu, and San Francisco have raw food vegan restaurants, but Silicon Valley has none.
Took my son into 99 Ranch Market for the deli and felt sick just walking through the store. I will never shop there again. They are super cheap, but like I’ve heard over and over, “you can pay now or pay later.” For years, I tried to save money on my diet, but now I realize that cheap food is never worth it.
Exercise
Was too tired this morning to do movements, although I did prayers with Jett which was nice. Did hike around Castle Rock in the oxygen rich Santa Cruz mountains.
Relationships
Tried to keep peace in all my relationships. Following the Hawaiian concept of akahai, I am trying not to activate anyone–Beryl, my sons, even strangers or fellow drivers.
Spirituality
I am getting so much love and light from different spheres of my life, including this blog, that healing is inevitable.
Kūkae (BM)
Had early morning bloody sediment, but for the whole day, i had nothing but semi-normal bowel movements. My last BM was bloody sediment, but I am definitely having long phases of intestinal health.
everyday gurus 
shocked
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surprised hearing
about cancer
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I’m sending you
your family
all my love
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take care
Great to “see” you again, Geo Sans. Lots been going on. Would love to catch up sometime. Thank you for your love, art, beauty, and presence. {{{Hugs}}} Kozo
Trying to not have bad thoughts is counterproductive. What you resist persists. As Adya’s teacher said to him “If you go to war with the mind you’ll be at war forever”. Forever. Think about that. It’s a long time. Far far better to allow whatever thoughts arise and to practice simply witnessing them. Remind yourself every time that they are only thoughts. They only have power if you buy into them. They are not who you are. They are not personal no matter how much it may feel like they are. They are ephemeral nothings floating by like clouds in the sky. If there are feelings attached to the thoughts, which there usually are, practice simply witnessing that too. Oh there goes fear. Oh here is anger arising again. Oh the anger needs to be released. Pillow pounding is happening. Oh here is shame arising. None of it is you, and all of it is only problematic if you think it is and take it personally. Don’t try to stop it. Instead practice taking a step back from it and witnessing it all. Welcome everything as a visitor to your house as Rumi said.
The Guest House
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
With much love dear friend.
Alison
Alison,
Thank you for the reframe. Yes, that which we resists persists. I think what I am doing is not reacting to bad thoughts. I still notice when others are inconsiderate in line at the supermarket, but I don’t judge them or stop loving them, their race, gender, ethnicity, class, creed, age, or political party.
I love Rumi’s poem. Thank you for reminding me.
I have to tell you that my wife sees you as my guardian angel. She has even started reading your blog. 🙂
Thank you so much for all you do in this life, Alison. You are a gift to me and my family.
Love,
Kozo
I’m so glad to hear that you’re not reacting to bad thoughts. I’ve had times when I’ve been so twisted up in that, and can still react with judgement and irritation, (just ask Don lol) but these days I very quickly can make a choice to move on, get present and remember that now is all there is, and that it’s just mindf*ck and not worth paying attention to.
That’s so lovely to hear about Beryl. I think we’re all guardian angels to each other – just by giving support and love. ❤ ❤ ❤ and for Beryl too!
Sending you my love, and we can overcome any obstacles on our path including the Big C.. And by reading your posts I know you are on track to helping yourself by nurturing your body through diet and exercise..
My sister overcame Breast Cancer altering her mindset and diet etc.. And the will power of having 4 young children at the time..
Love and Blessings to you and yours.
Sue ❤
Thank you for the testimonial about your sister, Sue. It can be lonely walking a path outside of conventional medicine. It is so nice to hear about those who have already paved the way.
{{{hugs}}} Kozo
Hugs back.. ❤
Love and blessings to you and your family.