Prison Awakening

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I originally wrote this fictional epistolary piece for the DPChallenge: Shift Your Perspective, until I re-read the challenge and found out that you had to write about blogging. I decided to post this story anyway after reading Professions for Peace’s posts about forgiveness and stumbling and Tracy’s post about letting go. I also think it applies to Mirth and Motivation’s post FOCUS: PEACE. I apologize for any offensive language; I was trying to portray the character as realistically as possible.Β 

Dear Edward,

I hope this letter finds you well. I know we haven’t spoken in sometime now, but I recently heard about your incarceration and I wanted to reach out to you. I know everything about the case, and I wanted you to know that I still love you. I will help watch over your kids until you get out.

If you want to write back, here is my new address:

Grace Osborne-Dufresne
199 E. Pearl Ave Gate #7
Harmony, Ca 93435

Hoping to hear from you,
Grace

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Dear Grace,

Funny getting a letter from you, especially when you failed to show up at the court case when I really needed someone on my side. If your letter is just to relieve your guilt, then forget it. We both know that you abandoned me in the past. I’m no angel, but things could have been different for me if you had stood by my side.

Not much you can do for me now. If you really want to help, put some money on my motherf#*@kin books. Or better yet, track down those punk-asses who set me up, so I can take retribution when I get out. They didn’t know who the f*#%k they were messing with.

I don’t even know why I’m wasting my time writing you.
Edward

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Dear Edward,

I’m so happy you wrote back. I miss talking to you. I want you toΒ  know that I have always been by your side, even if you don’t feel that way. In response to things being different, I hope one day you will see that everything happens for a reason.

I’m sorry, but I am not able to give you any money at this time, but I heard the food in there is not bad compared to other prisons around the world. I also won’t be able to help you take revenge. In fact, I would advise you to do the opposite. Maybe you can forgive those who have done things you think are unjust in the same way that others can forgive you for what you might have done.

I hope you are taking this time to reflect on how lucky you are to be alive.

Love always,
Grace

P.S. You know I love you just the way you are, but can you refrain from using language that is derogatory towards others. Some of your brothers and sisters don’t appreciate being called names. Thanks.

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Dear Grace,

I hate that “everything happens for a reason” shit trash. What was the reason for Dad beating the crap out of me when I was a kid? Where were you when that was happening? As far as I’m concerned nothing happens for a reason. Everything happens because we make it happen. It is easy for people like you to tell people like me that everything happens for a reason. You got everything. I got nothing to look forward to but four years of “rehabilitation” in this rusted cage.

The only thing that keeps me going is thinking what I’m going to do to the people who put me here, and I’m not just talking about those snitches. I’m going to make the DA and the judge pay for the way they treated me. Don’t they know who the hell I am? Well, they will know when I get out of here. Society has gotten its revenge on me and has taught me that the only way to rehabilitate people is to punish, punish, punish.

I realized the other day that you are the only one on earth who sincerely cares about me. No one else has even written me a letter. I want you to know that this means a lot to me.

Love,
Edward

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Dear Edward,

Thank you for your letter and kind words. There are many people who are on your side if you let them. I really wish you would drop this whole revenge idea. I know you better than anyone else, and this is not who you are. Remember what we learned in Sunday school–do unto others as you would have them do to you? Your desire to punish others is creating your own punishment. Let it go.

On the same note, maybe you can start treating others the way you want to be treated. Maybe start with the people who are in prison with you. I know that prison can be a tough place, so maybe you can brighten up the place with your attitude, compassion, and goodwill.

Yours truly,
Grace

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Dear Grace,

I got a new bunkie a few weeks back, so I decided to try what you suggested. I treated my new cellie as kindly as I am capable without letting down my guard. It turns out that he is a really cool cat. His name is Tad, but we call him Mastermind because no one can beat him at chess. I don’t know why he is in protective custody cause he is definitely not a dropout from the gangs.

He often sits in the cell and just meditates. He even missed rec time because he was meditating. It almost seems like he likes it in here. He said that this is the first time he was truly able to devote his whole day to reading and meditation. What a tripper.

Anyways, he said something the other day that made me think about you. He said that there is nothing worse than being locked up all day with the person who put you here. It took me a while to realize that he was talking about me. I put myself here. Even if I didn’t do everything they said I did, I definitely treated people poorly. Those people I hurt wanted to hurt me, so they lied on the stand and put me here, but it was me who made them want to lie. Do you see?

Mastermind also said that he and I suffer from the same disease–the “don’t you know who the hell I think I am” disease. He said he’s trying to be nobody, whatever that means. I kind of get what he is saying. Half the times I do stupid things because I think people need to recognize how strong, smart, or clever I am. Isn’t that funny? Doing stupid things to prove to people how smart I am. Mastermind said that he was going to show me how to meditate, so that I would stop worrying about what others thought about me.

Keep the letters coming. I am so grateful for your love and guidance.

Love,
EG

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Dear EG,

That is so funny. I was just thinking about how I used to call you that when we were close. I am so happy you have found a friend in there. Tad seems like a a pretty unique guy. I don’t think that it was pure coincidence that he became your cellmate.

I hope you are starting to realize that your journey into prison was aΒ  necessary step to become who you were meant to be. You have so much to offer the world, EG. I can’t wait to hear what you are up to next. Maybe you can start writing down your experiences to share with others.

Thank you for your strength, courage, and compassion.

Love always,
Grace

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Dear G. Osborne-Dufresne,

E.G. Osborne is no longer at this facility, so we are returning this letter to the sender. We have no record of where E.G. Osborne is at this time.

Sincerely,
Texas Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation

“Is there a place for the hopeless sinner who has hurt all mankind just to save his soul? Believe it. Onelove.”Bob Marley

Virtual hugs to anyone who can figure out who these characters really are…?

Thank you for reading, sharing, and/or empathizing.

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22 comments on “Prison Awakening

  1. Wow… this is an amazing post, and I will be re-reading this a few more times before I can offer a more enlightened opinion of who these characters really are… and more about the angry inmate gave up his blame-game and ‘vanished’. But Ted/Mastermind reminds me of a favorite novel of mine from Richard Bach, “Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah”. Your writing is descriptive, insightful, natural, and makes me want to keep reading about these characters! Thank you for sharing your gift here with us, your readers. Namaste. ~Gina

    • Kozo says:

      OMG. Gina, you are an angel. I was reluctant to post this story because it is pretty raw and dark compared to my usual posts. After reading your inspiring post about forgiveness and your beautiful post on going into the abyss, I knew I had to publish this story.
      I am so thrilled that you picked up so many nuances of the story. Illusions is one of my favorite books. One of the blogs I follow is called interprettingillusions, so it is pretty safe to say that Bach’s work is always in my subconscious. I am honored that you thought of Donald Shimoda/Illusions messiah when you read about Mastermind.
      I will hold out for a few days before giving some clues to the identity of the characters, but judging from your insight into the story, you will be pleasantly surprised when you find out who they are.
      Thank you so much for this comment. It is the best comment I have ever gotten.:) {{{Hugs}}}

    • Kozo says:

      Gina,
      Elizabeth from Mirth and Motivation figured out the mystery of the Prison Awakening story–the characters are really Ego (E. G. Osborne) and God (Grace Osborne-Dufresne). Thought you might like to know.

  2. Sarah says:

    Beautiful job, Kozo. It speaks to my journey as well. I have always “known who I was/am”, now I am working on not beating everyone over the head with it. πŸ˜‰ One love.

    • Kozo says:

      Thanks, Sarah. If it is important enough, sometime you need to beat people over the head. haha. I think if we really delve deep inside of who we are, we will find that we are onelove.
      {{{Hugs}}}

  3. diannegray says:

    Very powerful indeed!

  4. Kozo says:

    For a clue on who these characters are, focus on the names, especially in the last letter by the Texas Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation.

  5. NIKOtheOrb says:

    Hmmm, I cannot figure out who these characters really are (although, I may recognize them once you reveal the truth), but as I was reading it, it reminded me greatly of The Shawshank Redemption by Stephen King (I don’t know why, and it really hit at the end and Dufresne was the last name of Grace, as Dufresne was the last name of the main character in the story). Also, the character Red in the story is very reminiscent of Mastermind.

    I can also see elements of Bach’s Illusions. This was one of your most inspiring posts and the lesson is tell-tale. I like how you staged it in using letters to a prisoner. And I really love the “mystery” of where Edward has gone and what he may be doing with his life after receiving the letters.

    Again, gurus can show up anywhere, everywhere. πŸ™‚

    • Kozo says:

      Niko,
      You are so smart. I totally stole Dufresne from Shawshank. Part of the reason I stole the name is because I needed the letter “D”==hint, hint.
      I thought I was making things pretty obvious, but once again I was out-clevering myself. 😦
      Thanks for the wonderful comment. {{{Hugs}}}

      • NIKOtheOrb says:

        Awesome! Shawshank is one of my favorites by Stephen King; there’s no way I could ever forget that name. I see you dropping hints as to the true identities of your characters and I am still at a loss. When do we get to know? <—-this is to be said in the same tone of voice reserved strictly for that proverbial question when on a trip, "Are we there yet?" LOL

      • Kozo says:

        Niko,
        Look at Elizabeth’s comment below. She figured it out. Tell me what you think. Sorry about the long road trip. πŸ™‚

      • NIKOtheOrb says:

        Of course! I knew I would be saying “Of course” when I read the true identities. Ah, brilliant use of acronym (and on the internet, too!), Kozo.

        Brilliant post! I just re-read it knowing that the characters are god and ego. You are one of the good ones, my friend.

      • Kozo says:

        Thank you, Niko. I knew you would enjoy it. πŸ™‚

  6. eof737 says:

    Oh don’t beat yourself up… It’s a brilliant conversation between God and the Ego. πŸ˜† I had to read it again and read your hints too.. I love the original, creative take and BTW, I loved the movie Shawshank Redemption. Brilliant! πŸ™‚ TY for the pingback. πŸ™‚

  7. Sunshine says:

    Always good to be last in the conversation… hehe!
    I, like Elizabeth, enjoyed your story very much. πŸ™‚

    • Kozo says:

      Thank you, Sunshine. It is always good to come in after the answer has been revealed. πŸ™‚ Unless there was a prize involved. Should have posted this with a give-away. haha

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